something's been brewing inside of me,
scribbling my thoughts and soaking me with doubt.
i'm repeating the same mistakes i kept making,
pushing when they pull, my cruelty resurfacing, all the while
regretting the harsh things i said and trying to come to terms with myself.
i feel too much,
and i feel nothing at all at the same time,
how does one deal with such contradiction?
all i know is that i'm staying away from alcohol,
for a while, at least until i've learned how to cope with
my current state of being.
but, i should also make clear that i'm okay,
i know i will be.. mostly thanks to him.