you are greatly missed

i can't believe that today marks the second year that you were taken from us, my dear friend. it still feels like it was only yesterday when we were all hyped up to celebrate your birthday with you. you were taken from us way too soon, way too soon, and we were all so heartbroken and filled with shock and anger... to tell you the truth, i don't think i ever really recovered from that. i miss you everyday, and i miss hearing your voice through our countless aim conversations, i miss how you would always check up on me to see how i'm doing, if i'm doing okay. i miss how you would always have an open ear for my problems (i'll never forget how you said "that nigga loves you, he just don't know it yet" haha), how you'd come over to dobbs randomly, i miss all those nights we stayed awake having inebriated fun with the rest of the fam. i miss your laugh, your smile, i miss how you'd always rape my twitter feed with the funny ass cocky shit that went on in your mind, and i miss the yogurtland breakfasts we'd have the morning after being incredibly fucked up. I MISS YOU, lover, and though your time on this earth was cut short, you live in the hearts of all of us and we all know you're watching over. i still cry, when i think about that fateful day when i got the call that you passed on, though i know if you were here, you'd tell me to stop being such a girl, haha.

oh, lover, it was an honor to have known you, to have grown closed to you, and honor to have been able to call you my friend, my fam and even a greater honor to be called your friend, your fam. i miss you greatly...what i wouldn't give to just hear one of those jokes of yours, to hear your laugh, to see your bright ass smile... you brought all of us together by leaving, and maybe you knew this had to happen since you kept wishing that we were all close like we used to be...and though i'm sad that you had to leave us in order to realize this...thank you, and i love you--we love you. always.

i know you're dancing in paradise.

lover sinsinasinae houn

7/25/1988 - 7/18/2010

ps. i'm so sad that we don't have ANY sober pictures together, lol