random saturdays

went to chinatown for some dim sum + xmas shopping with sean & steven.

my friend quinton...

a sneak peek...

i randomly ventured out with my friend/roommate quinton today.

we were being a couple of camera-whores in front of our apartment,

then went out to hollywood and highland to window shop and such.

we almost got into a fight with catwoman! she's a spiteful one.

anyway, today was fun! we're planning a shoot next wednesday.

quinton is a stylist, and a very good one at that. he's my go-to for outfit approvals =)

stay tuned for my mini-shoot with him, and also for our collaboration!

lacma holiday party

every year, lacma throws the best holiday party for its employees (and their +1)

and it's a night filled with free wine, beer, good food (especially desserts),

a mashed potato bar (super yummy!), fun activities and the best raffle for prizes.

last year, there was a handwriting analyst who took a look at the way you wrote,

a lipstick reader who made you put lipstick on and kiss a napkin...

of course, taking a picture with santa is there every year.

this year there was a tarot reader and a caricaturist.

i couldn't get my cards read (the sign up sheet filled up the first thirty minutes)

but waited in line (with success) for an hour to get caricatured.

i think this is the first year i got to do something, haha.

last year and this year i won prizes off the raffle! that never happens to me.

but to happen two years in a row? i'm beginning to think sean brings me luck with these things, haha.

anyway, here's what i wore:

us being weird:

and what we stood in line for the first hour for:

aw, we both have cameras!

bumped into old friends, made new ones,

had a lot of fun with the people in my life now

and i can't wait for next year's party!

30DAYCHALLENGE -- 14.

14. Something disgusting you do.

Well, for one, I pick my boogers when I'm alone.

Sometimes, blowing your nose just doesn't cut it.

For another, I tweet about pooping.

And I'm almost always pooping when I tweet about it, haha.

Oh, and I have a filthy, filthy vocabulary.

Honestly, I can be a very vulgar person all around.

PS) I totally forgot about this exercise that I started, haha.

purgatory, part one.

I strung together the things I left unsaid and let them trail along behind me as I walked down this path, holding his hand and falling in step with him. Maybe I should have went my own way, for a little bit, giving myself time to heal and emerge from the situation with a clearer sense of things. Maybe that way, the emotionally charged run-ins could have been avoided and I could have skipped the part where I proceeded to tear at myself violently. But there is no room for hypothetical what ifs, what's done is done. The only thing left is to extract the lessons it were to teach me, something I haven't bothered to do, for I was too caught up with my own masochism.

I'd be lying if I denied the fact that this opened my eyes to things I never really knew about myself. It also served as a catalyst to the growth I've experienced this year and I can't really decide if it's necessarily good or bad. Things happen for a reason and in the end I'm very happy in our present, filled with hope for our future, but if given the chance to re-do the past two years...would I go through it again?

It's no secret that letting go of the past isn't exactly my forte. I've always held on tightly to the things that broke me, made me cry, conditioning me to be the person I am today. For a long time, I wasn't myself if I didn't have my anger and my sorrows to get me through the day. It drove me, served as my fuel for living, and the success I were to gain from that was going to serve as the best vengeance. So, how would this be any different? If I couldn't even let go of the things that happened to me when I was younger, what made anyone think I'd let go of this?

november, november.

Hello readers!

I'm sorry I haven't been consistent in my posting. I'm getting too comfortable (and also a tad bit lazy) with all the festivities this season brings. I hope all of you had a great Thanksgiving and that it was filled with good food, great company, and many memories. I was definitely thankful that I had someone special to share this holiday with and especially thankful that my family and I are in great terms (as opposed to the past two years). Usually this time around the year I'm at my lowest--holidays never really treated me so well for the most part of my life, but I'm glad things have started to look up. I hope that it'll be like this for many more holidays to come!

Anyway, it's about that time I clear out some memory space on my phone and overload you with pictures that show you a glimpse into my life.

First off, this is most of the food I ate throughout this month: