pause

so many words swirl in my mind but i don't have the urge to speak them.

there was a time when i longed to be heard, longed to feel like i mattered and that i made a difference, an impact, in the lives of those who walked in and out of my life. nowadays, i'm no longer desperate for acknowledgement and i don't care much for what others think of my thoughts and actions, much less care whether or not i resonate in the memories of people i myself am beginning to forget.

maybe i can say that i owe it all to time, to my growth, and to the recent experiences i have gained in my days of living. i can't quite put a finger on the way that i have been feeling and the introspections i have made as of late, but i can definitely say that i'm on a good path with myself.

lately, i've been experiencing a dry spell with my creativity but today i've felt a resurgence of my passions. i'm excited to see how the plans i've made with a few friends begin to unfold and manifest themselves.

it's also the beginning of the second phase of 2013. this year, as i keep saying in past posts, have been nothing short of amazing so far and the remaining six months look very promising as well!

changes. lots of them, and they couldn't have come at a more perfect time.

we were just fools sitting under the setting sun

pushing and pulling, ever ready to jump the gun.

long time no blog

excuse the mosquito bite on my forehead, they feasted on my blood when i went camping in sequoia!

hello everyone! it's been a while, hasn't it?

i hope this blogpost finds everyone in good health and great times. in the month and a half that i've been silent, not much has happened. well, i lied, a lot has happened. as i've said in earlier posts, this year so far has been the most eventful in my now twenty-three-and-a-half years of life. i've met loads of new people, made new friends, my days and nights have been filled with amazing company and i love the direction my life is taking when regarding the relationships i have and i am currently treasuring and nurturing. this year has also been the most expensive in spending so far, but i ain't mad--you get what you pay for.

right now, i'm at a place in my life where i'm welcoming change--a change of pace, a change of means to reach the ends, and definitely a change of character. throughout this year, my eyes have opened to many new truths and i am adjusting myself to adapt. there's been a lot of time spent in introspection and (as cliché as it may sound) i'm nowhere near the woman i want to be but i'm well on my way towards her.

a lot of change, brewing inside of me and gurgling outside in my daily life..i'm excited! and i haven't really been shooting much or even partaking in my artistic interest, i kind of lost the groove but i'll be hopping back into soon. sometimes it just feels awesome to take a break and live.

so, until next time, à bientôt!

daphne guinness

yes, yes, she is the direct heiress to the 18th century beer the i love so much.

she is also an artist, socialite, and muse to many designers and artists as well.

i know her best as the muse to the amazing alexander mcqueen (all hail mcqueen!)

i recently found out that her mother was an artist and muse to man ray and dali,

who were daphne's neighbors growing up when her family spent the holidays

in spain.. just imagine! maybe that was the precursor to this woman's surreal

and utterly divine sense of fashion. can you believe she's forty-five?!?!

spiritual retreat

i've been quite taken by the beauty of this place,

and the photos i'm about to share are from my first visit

to joshua tree national park--just two hours away from los angeles.

since this trip we took on a random tuesday in january,
we've all made it a point to go at least once a month.
things get better with each and every visit!

it's always good to take a break from the city every now and then
fill your lungs with better air, take in everything you can with your senses
unplug from society and just go out there to explore the unfamiliar

let's all tune into the universe and reach for our inner indigo child.

queen of procrastination

these days i'm always having to catch up with stuff

like my 2D design color theory midterm-project

(that got blown away in the wind on monday -__-),

all those pictures of joshua tree i wanted to post up,

and editing the photos from past shoots that i haven't touched..

school and work has kind of cluttered my mind as well as..

oh, you know..

back to black

because black seems to dominate my wardrobe

because my attachment to this bodysuit is borderline obsessive

because i'm so happy now that i can tie my awkward mess of hair back

i've dawdled the hours away on mad men and google

now it's time to head out and explore the neighborhood park

(which i haven't stepped foot in since moving to the area)