prohibition

something's been brewing inside of me,

scribbling my thoughts and soaking me with doubt.

i'm repeating the same mistakes i kept making,

pushing when they pull, my cruelty resurfacing, all the while

regretting the harsh things i said and trying to come to terms with myself.

i feel too much,

and i feel nothing at all at the same time,

how does one deal with such contradiction?

all i know is that i'm staying away from alcohol,

for a while, at least until i've learned how to cope with

my current state of being.

but, i should also make clear that i'm okay,

i know i will be.. mostly thanks to him.